On being more human. Trauma Resolution as mystical work. Somatic practices. Invitations into ritual and ancestral work.

Is the healing you're desiring just not happening?

I have a question for you,  - is the healing you're desiring just not happening? Or maybe it's happening but it never lasts? Or maybe it's not the healing that's stuck but the moving forward and going for what you truly desire in your life.

And no matter how much you push, force, try to fix, meditate, affirm, talk about it, tap, move - it's not budging, it's not healing, it's not moving.

A couple of years ago I was doing ALL of the things hoping to heal myself and to move on from a few difficult situations. I was meditating and doing all the affirmations and EFT daily, I pulled out all the stops seeing energy healers and even moved countries several times (yep, radical changes!) in hopes of creating the healing and the lasting change that I desired. 

No matter what I did, I ended up in the same place - the same feeling place. I was riding the same edge - the same limits that wouldn't budge. This place felt so familiar and yet so not like I belonged there.

Looking back now, I can see that ending up in the same feeling space over and over again was a clue that ended up holding the key to creating lasting change and healing (more on this clue in a second).

At the time I was beyond exhausted - burned out from too much pushing, forcing and trying to fix - to see what any of it really meant. I was really scared that nothing working meant that there was something wrong with me. 

In true introvert fashion, I got really quiet and surrendered to the moment. In the quiet the brain fog slowly cleared, the exhaustion lifted and I was able to connect to what would hold the key to creating the changes I desired.

In a late night journaling session, I realized that the word I had been using to describe this place to my friends and family was the word "familiar" - what became so clear to me in that moment was that familiar meant that I had to look at my family, at transgenerational/ inherited trauma, at behavioral patterns, at fears and violations and bad stuff that happened long before I arrived here on earth. 

It meant that the limiting place, that same edge didn't start with me, it meant that this was something that had started decades, maybe even centuries ago, when someone in one of my lineages experienced trauma, a violation, war, abuse.

So I went all in (as I do) and the healing that unfolded when I began healing my lineages, when I began resolving my inherited trauma was heart opening. Life really felt like a miracle (and I know that I've been saying this over and over again - but it truly, truly felt like this for me. It felt like relief, like joy, like I could finally breathe freely).

Here's what I want you to know (if this is the only thing you take away from reading this): If the healing you're desiring is just not happening, if you just can't seem to move forward no matter how much you try, it might be because of inherited trauma. It's not you. You didn't do anything wrong. 

What I also want you to know is that maybe it's you - maybe it's you who chooses to heal this - for yourself, those who came before you and all those to come (you always have a choice and this is not a must - but maybe you've been hearing the quiet whispers of this work calling to you). 

I'm here to help you resolve and heal these traumatic imprints so that you can be free, so that you can be fully and lusciously alive and vibrantly you! 

This is my heart's work, my soul's work and I've got a few more spots open for 1-on-1 immersive healing experiences. If you're finding yourself in these words, or if you're hearing that soft whisper - allow yourself to lean in.

Let's connect on a free Feeler Call here to see if this might be the medicine, the sigh of relief that you've been looking for. Cannot wait to speak to you!

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